Tired night and gonna pass out kinda day!

I feel extremely tired today - I stayed up all night, played a board game night, then met a great girl and we talked for a few hours, then I headed to Astoria to go to my brothers and the guy actually turned me away, I told him in texts and in person that I didnt sleep and he said they didnt feel Comfortable with me sleeping there while they were at work! What kind of bullshit is that, a brother who turns another brother out is low, a scummy sack of shit if you ask me. I'm mad and this makes me want to get the fuck out of NY. Why am I here anyway? I can barely keep my head up. I need rest. I'm still in between houses and dont have anywhere to live now, its really making me mad and sad. I want to just figure out what the fuck to do and do it. I hate this waiting indecisive phase. I really want to lay down right now. And to top it off its fucking freezing. If it were warm out I could go sleep outside but its rainy adn cold and doing that is not possible.

Writing and Seeking direction today!

(I learned from This girl Ashlie, the value of listening)

when we were at that middle eastern place and you she me I didnt listen well before and it was something I'm improving and had to work on.

Now when I Listen to people I look intheir eyes, or imagine doing so and think in my head "Shut the fuck up Mike, (and say to the person), I Love you" all silent in my head...

today

todays been a Very Fun day